Job 1:21 The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; blessed
be the name of the LORD.
I want to thank each and every one of you who have reached
out to Tyler and I as we deal with the loss of our precious baby. We are healing.
Physically it is taking a long time (in my mind) to recover. The doctors said
it would take three weeks (!) for my body to regenerate the quantity of blood
that I lost after the miscarriage. So I can’t walk up my own stairs without becoming
short of breath, I can’t pick up or carry James, can’t carry in groceries, and
I have to sleep a lot. It is hard to have to rely on my mom, friends, or Tyler
to do everything for me when I am the mama at this house and I’m supposed to do
all those regular things.
Psalm 34:18 The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves
the crushed in spirit.
So many of you have been praying for me, for us. Thank you,
we still need your prayers. The Lord God has been so merciful and gracious to
me throughout the miscarriage and following days. He has brought me peace with losing
the baby, and I am reassured that s/he is in the presence of Almighty God,
without spot or blemish, pain, or suffering. I think Tyler is still more
concerned with my recovery; the possibility of losing me was more scary to him than
losing the baby. Maggie is learning to deal with the sudden little waves of
sadness that pop up at random times. James, well, he’s James. Still running
around, making messes everywhere he goes. He is a good distraction and minute-by-minute
reminder of the grace the Lord has previously shown, and continues to show me.
I am still sad, and I still cry a lot. And that’s OK, it will
probably happen for a while. When we told Maggie about the baby, I reassured
her it’s OK to be sad and to cry. We miss our baby because we won’t get to
watch them grow up, we won’t get to know them and love them more. But we have
assurance that the Lord is in control, and all things work together for
our good.
Psalm 34:1 I will bless the LORD at all times; his praise
shall continually be in my mouth.
1 comment:
Oh, Melissa! I am so sorry to read this!!! I will be praying for you today. I'm so glad to hear how God is taking care of you and sustaining your heart. I grieve with you with the loss of this precious baby. Thank you for sharing your heart. I know God will continue to sustain you, be your strength and Joy as the days go on. Love you, friend!
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