February 22, 2013

What's in a date? God's love for me, that's what.

Today (Friday, February 22, 2013) was my due date with baby #3. It’s been 5 months and a week. I don’t know if I (or any other woman who miscarries) ever fully heals those wounds to the heart, though our lives go on, and I thought today would be really hard. But what I am finding is that hard days are a surprise, not a fixed calendar appointment. Some days I don’t grieve at all. And there are days like Sunday. Nothing particularly special about it, except that under other circumstances I would either have been big as a brick house, in the hospital, or at home cuddling with my newest child. Those thoughts, hope and dreams that are no more, still hurt.

We sang worship songs that morning that touched my soul, and I got to worship through my tears my Creator and Sustainer. They reminded me of how great and wonderful my God is, and how He loves me individually. He cares about my hurts, and I can bring them to him, “cast all your cares on Him, because He cares for you” (I Peter 5:7). It’s not that as a believer I don’t feel pain or suffer from the events of life- I have the sore eyes and a husband’s stained shoulder to prove it, but I have a heavenly perspective and know that this life is not all there is to offer. And my hope is not placed in people, no matter how special they are to me.

Studying this week, I ran across a passage I underlined many years ago in Arthur Pink’s The Attributes of God on God’s faithfulness. What providence.
There are seasons in the lives of all when it is not easy, no not even for Christians, to believe that God is faithful. Our faith is sorely tried, our eyes bedimmed with tears, and we can no longer trace the outworkings of His love. … Cherished plans have been thwarted… We are staggered. … and now a dark cloud hides Him from us. … Ah, faltering soul, severely tried fellow pilgrim, seek grace to heed Isaiah 50:10, “Who among you fears the LORD and obeys the voice of his servant? Let him who walks in darkness and has no light trust in the name of the LORD and rely on his God.” … Though you cannot now harmonize God’s mysterious dealings with the avowals of His love, wait on Him for more light. In His own good time He will make it plain to you. … God has neither forsaken nor deceived His child. “Therefore the LORD waits to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you. For the LORD is a God of justice; blessed are those who will wait for him.” (Isaiah 30:18).

Pink goes on to quote 2 Timothy 1:12, “I am not ashamed, for I know whom I have believed, and I am convinced that he is able to guard until that Day what has been entrusted to me” and says “When we trustfully resign ourselves, and all our affairs into God’s hands, fully persuaded of His love and faithfulness, the sooner shall we be satisfied with His providences and realize that “He does all things well.”

While I did not feel abandoned or unable to see God working in the midst of my miscarriage, I certainly did feel the hand of the Lord on my life like no other time, this passage was a really good reminder to rely and wait on God because He is faithful. His promises are all over the Bible, and He fulfills them all. The LORD is at work in my life to work all things for good, to make me more like Jesus Christ in my faith, character, and actions. I am thankful for His graciousness to me, and I am reminded once again how blessed I am.

Maggie's 7th Birthday

Maggie chose to have a roller skating party this year. It was a relief not to do it at home, and the skating rink kept the girls busy and everyone had a great time, even James! We had Maggie some of her gifts Saturday morning, even though her birthday was Sunday so she could have her skates and new elbow and knee pads for the party.
Tyler photo-bombing this picture.
She loved them so much she wore her skates for breakfast.
Modeling her new pads and birthday outfit. Yes, I made that shirt. I can't help myself.
Little Miss at the rink, ready to roll!
I made "VIP Passes" for Tyler and I and the girls for the party so I could keep track of them. The kids had free reign in the skating rink. James had to have a pass, too. Gotta be like Sissy.
We weren't sure what we were going to do with James for the party, but they let you take strollers on the rink. Tyler was skating FAST with James! And James sat in that stroller without fussing for nearly and hour going around and around. It was great!
My turn!
And here we all are.
Maggie's cake. She wanted a strawberry cake with "wedding frosting" like I did for Brian and Rachelle's wedding. I also decorated sugar cookies with royal icing for party favors and to incorporate the roller skate theme into the cake.
A bunch of little girlies! They scarfed down their pizza. Skating is hard work!
Other side of the table.

All the girls, Maggie especially, was excited about the drinks. The rink staff "host" the pizza and cake portion and didn't bother asking this mom what the girls could have to drink. They got COKE. Fully-caffeinated Coca-Cola. Maggie never gets anything but a single drink if Tyler has Coke, so this was a big treat for her. I am pretty sure she had 2 cups of it.
Posing with the cake.
More girls, and it's cake time!
Daddy and James eating cake!
Maggie won some tickets in the wind booth (sorry - no pictures) and she picked vampire teeth.
Opening gifts.
All the little girls in one picture.
Birthday balloons. Gotta have birthday balloons. Maggie had several of the girls come home with us after the party for a sleepover. They were all SO cute and everyone had a great time.
We opted for a roller skating birthday party this year.

February 6, 2013

Christmas 2012

This was our year to stay in Nashville. And I will say it's the first time we've stayed home that I have NOT being totally bummed out about staying home.
I uploaded a bunch of pictures to a web album instead of cluttering up the blog. Here's the link:

Thanksgiving 2012

Maggie's school district had the entire week of Thanksgiving off, so we spent it in Phoenix with Tyler's family. It was a blast! Maggie and cousins Alexis and Gabby played together all week - James tagged along as best he could.

We enjoyed LOTS of sun, some shopping, I did a lot of sewing (Christmas presents). And it was just a really great time. 

We did family pictures while we were there.

We stopped at Lowe's on the way home from the airport to get our Christmas tree. Gotta get the most out of it! Maybe some day we will go to a tree farm...

Brian got hitched! (November 2012)

My youngest brother, Brian, got married in November. I uploaded a web album because I had so many pictures. I took James with me and flew to Seattle a week before the wedding to help mom and Rachelle and Brian with all the wedding prep. I even got to do the flowers. It was really great.

Anywhoo, here's the link for the album.